Grow up!

i have never been what is "normal".
i have always just been me.
rebelious to society expectations,
i have never really been willing to "grow up".
and i have been perfectly fine with that but lately i have found myself thrust into adulthood and not quite knowing what to do with myself.
i still want to be that little kid i always was inside but with the presures of work, friends and finding a suitable carier i cant help but think that i am losing my child like qualitys.
i have always been the youngest of all my friends and with turning 18 at the end of the year i guess im trying to figure out if 17 means grow up or stay a kid for just that little bit longer.